oh em gee, fb history.

so, it feels like there's more to what's happening now than anyone thought. i'd like to give things a chance. we'll see how far we go.

and we hope to go very far.

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Today's the day we missed each other.

I still miss you.

Labels: dearjoe

You know, it's not like i committed the ultimate sin to deserve all this estrangement. All that happened was that i ended it with him because it was something i should have done long ago. Eventually, we (i hope, we) let bygones be bygones. Now, i'm not even mentionable or considered to be a friend anymore. The least anyone could do is acknowledge me. (<- liao, like some attention-whore's daily line 'cos she's got daddy issues.)

I've felt this for a while, but then again, i thought i was over-thinking and probably over-feeling.

I want to say that it's my fault for not keeping in touch. But not keeping in touch doesn't result in complete and utter disassociation. For goodness sakes, this is exactly like i thought it would be. I was just his girlfriend instead of one of your friends. Wonderful.

I hope to God i'm over-thinking and over-feeling again. Beh. This shouldn't matter. But i suppose anyone would feel perplexed/disheartened/disappointed/etc to realize the ugly truth about anything. Then again, if people just don't like me to begin with... too bad lor. I'm a loser for life. ~.~

Hope my period's coming soon, 'cos this is just came out of someone's ass.

(shiiiitegotchapeltomorrowandworkwithdoubleshiftandexamonfriday. mati la!)

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I would like the week to give me some time to watch some movies. Playing chess in my head to see whether i should consider investing in Netflix.

Chapel's started again. Now i've got to readjust my work schedule accordingly. I hope J-Term will end well. It was a lot of laughs understanding chapter9 in Applied Stats Mgmt with Joseph, but that was too much effort put into a single chapter.

I've got to sleep. So i can be superbly refreshed for the first common chapel tomorrow.

Yes la, if anyone's forgotten or was living under a rock all this while, i've got chapel requirements to adhere to. And i got hit by a cow during the Farm Show at Harrisburg last week. Yay, me.

Labels: college

I still don't understand why or how you can even continue loving me like this.

How do i deserve you?

It's both too late to be up and to early to be awake now. But that's what you get when you're trying to un-psych yourself after watching The Orphan two hours prior. School has been full of wonder (like, i wonder a lot about statistics everyday =.=) and the relationship has been wonderfully wonderful.

I miss home a lot. I day-dream about it almost everyday. Getting less and less interested in spending one year in Philly. I've got a lot of stuff to store/move if I opt to do that. And i don't know how alone I'd feel there. It's like leaving your best friend while you go somewhere else for a while uncertain whether distance will truly make the heart fonder or fearing the pain that comes with it if it does.. Unpleasant.

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...it reminds me about how much you love me.


Suppose a quick update wouldn't hurt. I've got this Bible test at 3pm (just about an hour away) and i need to calm the heck down.

The days are looking better, approaching thanksgiving. While everyone else is suffering with project deadlines encroaching, I'm kind of... okay! Lucky girl here got most of her projects done and nothing's due other than a test before Thanksgiving.

I'm still homesick but i'm looking forward to the rest of the school year. Once Christmas in Tennessee ends, i've got J-term and a room all to myself. Juli's taking an extended break =.= ... It will be lonely, but i appreciate having a single room again :P.

Actually, i'm looking forward to what's going to happen after summer (Malaysia). I'll be in Temple for a year and after that, one semester in Japan. Kya~!

So, one step of the time for me. While i let everything fall into place, i'll just concentrate on this exam. 58 minutes left to study. Mrah. After this test, i'm gonna go on a picnic in the cold. Because it'll be such a great day after that. ^ ___ ^

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gracious. i didn't realize this blog was under lock and key. sorreh.


mini update: KOKIA ftw.

one messed up thing i found while redoing the layout was that all my links are gone. sial. now i've gotta manually locate people and link them. why people, why did you disappear???

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The Salaryman suddenly discovers his penis has mutated into a gargantuan power drill. This is how his terrified girlfriend meets her demise.

My mind wandered onto a wiki page.

See: Tetsuo: The Iron Man


Maybe because i isolated my old posts that i lost my mojo to write. Wah, such power the past begets me.

:P

Due to a long absence, please excuse my word vomit of updates. I'm too tired to write an essay of how much i implore the sun to rise every day or miss the riches of home grown diversity of ethnicity.

Life has been fairly alright this time. Aside from a bad macroeconomics class, i'm doing alright. I just received a huge ass package from home. Tengkiu ma, now i won't have to shop online anymore for the next year. Poo.

Apparently, there's a second box coming. Holy crap. I've got no space lah!!!

(But i will humbly receive it with open arms, 'kay?)

I have nil. pictures to upload. I mean, got la. But everyone's probably seen it on facebook. Even if i've disabled the Photo tab. Campus looks like Fall now. Like, a real dry leafy fall. Not like last week's wet grimy and freezing cold Fall.

I've settled my flight arrangements for Tennessee for Christmas! Very excited to chill with Iris (family friend) there. Two girls having fun before one gets married. Kakakakaka....

Oh, i'm coming home for Summer! Looking to do courses (nerd!) at either Taylor's or HELP. HELP's site is being a bitch though. It's giving me a pretty hard time looking for course listings when Taylor's was so easy to find. I can't decide whether this is coincidence or brand loyalty at hand.

Lastly, online shopping is major addictive. But i'm stopping now. Must stop. I've got too much stuff and no space. I can't think about how i'm gonna pack up for summer. Gosh. So. Much. Shite. No munny sumore. Mati laaaah!

To friends and family and loved ones,

I wish you are happy in life wherever you are now. Happiness!!!

Regards,
Sue

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